I was just commenting on a blog but had to stop. I was getting way off track of the original conversation because I realized something. Loving people has always been hard for me, for everyone I suppose, are people "worth" love? Seeing people's self-centeredness, rudeness, cruelty, indifference, lack of the hallmarks that are what supposedly makes us human, makes it really hard to see the good. Why are we told to concentrate on the good?
A few blogs and forums are out there by people who used to believe and now don't. I can totally understand that, when you devote your whole life and being to something and then can't reconcile it to reality, what can you do? It's like freeing yourself from shackles (not that I've ever been shackled), from "working up faith to continue". When I was commenting, I remembered like I was re-living when I AM showed me. "He" was there, here, WITH me. Not in some soft little way, he was EVERYWHERE AND EVERYTHING. If He doesn't do that to/for everyone, how can they know anything?! I've been so scared to experience anything like that ever again but I know that's the whole point. And that's what I realized when I had to leave that blog I was reading.
I understand yet another reason to love people because of those experiences I had. Not just for their sake but for our own! Because:
You have to be wide open to other people when the Spirit of the Holy comes in you strongly or you will explode!
Even more, now I understand what scripture meant when it said "For in him dwells all the fullness of the godhead bodily." Same thing, Jesus was so open to loving others that the spirit flowed into and through him to everyone. Then it says we're made full that same way, kind of scary. We ARE made full or we CAN be?